10/6/11 Surgery Weight 313
12/10/11 Last Weight 277
12/31/11 Current Weight 277.2
Last weigh in of 2011. Amazingly I am only up .2 pounds. I haven't "officially" weighed myself since my last weigh in on 12/10, but I did weigh myself a week or so ago and I was up to 280. The way I have been shoveling food in my mouth I figured for sure I would be up even more. I have no idea how I am at 277.2...must be a Christmas miracle. I haven't exercised, except a walk on Christmas morning with my mother in law, since the Monday before Thanksgiving. The last couple of weeks I've been upset and shoving my feelings down with food. It is my habit, and it has come back. I go to therapy and my therapist encouraged me to talk about what was bothering me, and to stop feeding my feelings. I had a big blowout with my boyfriend yesterday, and I am in such a better place today. He had no idea of some of the things I was feeling, because as is my way, I haven't told him anything...even though he has asked, a lot. He could tell something was wrong, but I couldn't talk about it. I really need to work on this big time in 2012. The band can't help my emotional issues, only I can do that.
I've seen some bloggers picked a word for the year, and I think it is a great idea. I don't know if anyone else has picked it yet, but below is my word for 2012.
: continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure, or opposition : the action or condition or an instance of persevering : steadfastness
I especially liked the part about continuing despite failure. I've so often in the past given up once I've fallen. I can't do that anymore. I need to continue this journey to get healthy. I want to live a long healthy life!
Here is a to a Happy and Healthy 2012 for everyone!!!!