Saturday, December 31, 2011

Weekly Weigh In Saturday 12/31/11 plus Word for 2012

3/31/11 Starting Weight 378
10/6/11 Surgery Weight 313
12/10/11 Last Weight 277
12/31/11 Current Weight 277.2

Last weigh in of 2011.  Amazingly I am only up .2 pounds.  I haven't "officially" weighed myself since my last weigh in on 12/10, but I did weigh myself a week or so ago and I was up to 280.  The way I have been shoveling food in my mouth I figured for sure I would be up even more.  I have no idea how I am at 277.2...must be a Christmas miracle.  I haven't exercised, except a walk on Christmas morning with my mother in law, since the Monday before Thanksgiving.  The last couple of weeks I've been upset and shoving my feelings down with food.  It is my habit, and it has come back.  I go to therapy and my therapist encouraged me to talk about what was bothering me, and to stop feeding my feelings.  I had a big blowout with my boyfriend yesterday, and I am in such a better place today.  He had no idea of some of the things I was feeling, because as is my way, I haven't told him anything...even though he has asked, a lot.  He could tell something was wrong, but I couldn't talk about it.  I really need to work on this big time in 2012.  The band can't help my emotional issues, only I can do that.

I've seen some bloggers picked a word for the year, and I think it is a great idea.  I don't know if anyone else has picked it yet, but below is my word for 2012.


: continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure, or opposition : the action or condition or an instance of persevering : steadfastness 
I especially liked the part about continuing despite failure.  I've so often in the past given up once I've fallen.  I can't do that anymore.  I need to continue this journey to get healthy.  I want to live a long healthy life!
Here is a to a Happy and Healthy 2012 for everyone!!!!


Saturday, December 10, 2011

Weekly Weigh In Saturday 12/10/11

3/31/11 Starting Weight 378
10/6/11 Surgery Weight 313
12/3/11 Last Weight 282
12/10/11 Current Weight 277

Over 100 pounds down!!  I've gotten rid of 101 nasty pounds!!  I am over the moon happy to have reached this goal so soon!  Sorry for repeating, but in my mind this warrants repeating.......101 pounds down!!!!!

This week I had 2 holiday luncheons, and still managed to be down 5 lbs for the week.  I know I won't always be able to work it this good, but I am so happy with how well those luncheons went.  I also exercised the last 3 days this week.  I've  been having trouble getting back onto the exercise band wagon, but I'm back on and driving the wagon to a new goal!  My new goal is to be at 267 by New Year's Day.  I think ten pounds is quite doable considering how well things have been going since I've gotten my fill.  It was hard to decide on a goal, because I didn't want to be over-aggressive, but I also wanted something to stretch for.  We will see what next week brings, and I'll decide if I need to make it more aggressive.

Speaking of next week, that brings up another challenge.  My boyfriend, step daughter and I will be going for our annual Christmas trip to Hershey Park, Friday to Sunday.  This will be our 5th year going, and it is always a good time.  Now I know many of you are thinking....uh oh, the sweetest place on earth, here comes the chocolate over load!  But actually, for me, the candy isn't the problem.  While I enjoy sweets, they aren't my go to food, and usually when we are in Hershey other than the chocolate bar they give you at check in, I don't usually eat any chocolate.  No, the real problem with going to Hershey is the lack of healthy food options.  The zoo literally only has pizza and hot dogs as options!  However, if there has been one thing I've learned with being banded, planning helps in most situations!  I've researched all of the restaurants, and we are planning to eat at the ones that have decent food options.  As for the zoo, that is the first place we will hit when we get there, so I'm planning to bring a protein bar or drink to have at the ready if need be.  In fact I'm packing protein drinks and bars in case I run into any issues.  Luckily our room has a mini fridge so the drinks will be cold.  As far as exercise goes I'm not too worried.  We will be going to the zoo, the park, and the gardens.  There will be a lot of walking involved, and we are planning a trip to the indoor pool one of the evenings, so I think that will suffice for exercise this year. Needless to say I will not being weighing in next Saturday, but next Monday instead.

On the subject of exercise...I ran yesterday.  My boyfriend keeps saying he would like us to join a kickball league for some exercise that would be fun.  He hates exercise, and he thought this would be a way for us to exercise together.  While on the surface it sounds like a good plan, when he mentioned it I was stricken with terror.  I haven't played a team sport since probably grade school.  Well there was that time in my twenties were I attempted to play volleyball on a team with my sister, but only went once because of fear and embarrassment.  I told him I am not ready yet, I can't run, and I surely can't run in front of others.  He said how would I know I couldn't run if I didn't try.  He also said it would only involved basically jogging to base. So last night, the two goofballs that we are, we bundled up and went out into our complex parking lot to see if I could run.  I was actually scared to run.  We determined an end point and off we went.  He of course was way faster than me, but I ran!  It wasn't fast, and it wasn't pretty, but I ran.  It was only for about 20 seconds, then we ran back.  My fat flapped and made smacking noises, and I was mortified.  I told him I'm still anxious about it, but if he wants to join a league after the holidays then I am in.  I will try not to think about it until then!

Hope everyone has a fantabulous week!!!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Weekly Weigh In Saturday 12/3/11

3/31/11 Starting Weight 378
10/6/11 Surgery Weight 313
11/26/11 Last Weight 287
12/3/11 Current Weight 282

I am beyond excited to be down 5 lbs from my last weigh in!  I actually got onto the scale twice to verify the weight was right!  I had my first fill on Monday, which I'm sure had a lot to do with it considering I haven't done much exercise this week at all.  Regardless of the fabulous weight loss I need to get back into my exercise routine. 

I have a mini goal of getting to 278 by Christmas, 100 lbs down from the start of this journey.  I believe I may have to adjust my goal!  Once I hit 278, if it is before Christmas, I will adjust my goal and make it for the new year.  I just have to figure out what that will be. 

We had some out of town visitors at work this week that we had to host, and provide a team lunch for.  Being a couple days out from my fill I had to be on pureed, so I couldn't eat what was provided.  I was very anxious about how I would eat in front of 20+ people and not eat what they were eating!  I packed my lunch and when the time came I just excused myself and informed those around me that I was on a special diet right now.  No one even batted an eye, and I didn't feel uncomfortable at all drinking my protein shake and eating my yogurt.  I have to keep reminding myself that other people do not care about what I eat as much as I always think they do!

Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season!