Saturday, June 16, 2012

Trying to get my mojo back!

Hello blog world, long time no see!  I've been struggling still with my journey, and recently trying to get my mojo back.  I've been gaining and losing the same 15-20 lbs.  I've been frustrated with my band and mostly with myself.  Really, I know the band is a tool, and it is my head that needs fixing, but how does one do that?  Electric Shock Therapy?  My surgery support group was fine in the beginning, but it became mostly about people fulfilling their pre-surgery requirement, which wasn't much help to me.  I'm not generally a "group" kind of person anyway.  Probably why I've tried WW several times, only to quit pretty early on.

My wonderful boyfriend has been so supportive, and he knows I've been struggling and full of frustration.  He had a sit down with me last night to talk about it all.  Much as I tried to avoid it, because that is what I do, he insisted and he can be pretty persuasive.  So several tissues later, because frankly I cry at the drop of a hat, especially when talking about my weight issues, we had hashed out some things.  He mentioned how I did better pre-surgery than I have since.  He suggested I go back to what worked for me then.  Nothing that I didn't know, food journal, slower eating, more days of exercise, reading the blogs even if I'm not posting, etc..  He promised to help in any way he can, and said he understands that I will always struggle with this, but that I can't give up because he needs me too much.  I do love that man so!

All this being said, I am thinking about going to BOOBS.  I think meeting some of you wonderful and inspiring people face to face would be an amazing thing.  Anyone who has been there before have any insight on what to expect, and what were some of their favorite things about it?  Any newbies like me considering going?  I know I'm late to the party on this one, so I'm not 100% on it yet.  



7 comments:

  1. Hi Beth! I highly recommend coming to BOOBS! This year will be my third, and I look forward to it more and more each time. As for as what to expect, read this post from last year: http://www.bandofoutrageousbabes.com/search/label/What to expect (from 8/1/11 in case my link doesn't work). That post pretty much sums it up, except for the chicken blood. If that actually happened, then I missed it. :)

    As for struggling, I'm right there with you. I think sometimes even though we know our band is a tool, we still sometimes really want it to do most of the work. Heck, I know I do sometimes.

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    1. Thanks Maria, I appreciate your enthusiasm! I'll check out the link, thanks for the info!

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  2. I am going and I am a newbie just like you...I would love to meet you! I am so sorry you are going through this rough patch. I think you are right...meeting other people have been through it will help. I don't go to the support meetings at my doctor's place either...same reason..everyone who is there is doing it as their surgery requirement.

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    1. Thanks Barbie, you are definitely one of the peeps I'd love to meet!

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  3. I think you know my opinion but I sent you a facebook message in case you forgot! LOL.

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  4. I am going to boobs and this will be my first year...just banded in February. We have two in a room right now and would do a third if you are interested...just email me. Good luck!

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    1. Jenn thank you for the offer, that is so sweet! I am going, but I'll be getting my own room. I look forward to meeting you! BOOBS 2012 here I come!

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