Warning, depressive rant to follow.
My one year bandiversary was on Saturday 10/6. Considering that I was feeling crappy about myself and my lack of weight loss, I didn't feel the need to mark it at the time. I'm still feeling that way, but also feel obliged to mark the day. I have often regretted getting the surgery, and today is no different. I still feel like I am on my own. I know I need a fill, and maybe that will help. Unfortunately I am still in a price battle with my surgeon's office. It doesn't matter, because even with a fill I have to follow the rules and eat the right things, and that doesn't seem to be happening these days. I went crazy after Chicago, don't ask me why. I was exhausted, so I haven't exercised at all since I got home. Even though I had lost .06 lb on the trip, I am sure I have gained that back and probably an additional 10 lbs since then, but I don't know for sure since I am afraid of the scale at the moment. I keep gaining and losing the same 15-20 lbs every few weeks, which cannot be even remotely healthy. I guess today is a new day. I'll try to blog about my wonderful Chicago trip soon.
End of depressive rant.
Sorry you're feeling blue--hoping this will pass soon. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteWe've all been in this situation before. Hopefully a fill will help and kick start your losses again, but know this will pass and always vent away here on the blogs. We've been there and understand completely! Chicago did a number on the scale for me too...It just made me even more positive I need to get back to the guy and get back into butt kicking mode. We can all do it...:)
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you are in a rough patch right now. We all go through them. Keep your chin up and start small. If a fill isn't an option right now... then make a small goal to fix one thing and go from there. Either work in that exercise, or work on your food. Once you start, the momentum will build. Hang in there!! :)
ReplyDeleteI have been going up down with the same 10 pounds since summer...it sucks. I made an appointment this morning to go to the doctor on Friday. Make an appointment...I don;t want you sitting around feeling icky about yourself. I love you....big hugs!
ReplyDeleteahh Beth...I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. Is there anyway you can work in walking...you got in so much walking in Chicago that it really counter-acted whatever you ate. I don't think exercise is the key but it sure helps when you can't eat the best. This last fill was like heaven to me. It finally took me to a place where I was not thinking about food and I was able to make better choices and control my hunger. Are there any other doctors you could shop around fill prices with? Good luck and I miss you!
ReplyDeleteI've been dealing with the same 10 or so lbs as well for months now so i know where you are coming from and I feel your pain. I also know around my 1 year mark is really when I started hitting some strong plateaus and had to find some other things to do to get the weight loss going (and then I got pregnant.. go figure!). If a fill isn't in the cards, I agree with Lori - work on fixing one thing and hitting a small goal and then go from there. You've got this girl!
ReplyDeleteI miss you and your smiley face!!
xo
oh boy, I feel your pain, I've been losing and gaining since losing my band. I hope to get my revision soon, but with out the help of insurance it is so tough to get the $$ together. If there is anything I can do to support you let me know, just don't be too hard on yourself. You can do this (so can I)! xoxoxo,
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Hey lady! Thinking of you these days and hoping you are doing well. I'm hoping you would be up for a trip to Vegas for a girls weekend next fall... ?? I'll message you on FB :)
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