Sunday, April 15, 2012
Filled with regrets
I haven't blogged since January, and didn't think I would blog again. I'm not sure what is compelling me now. I go for my third fill tomorrow, but I am not holding out much hope. I have been quite depressed and sort of regretting getting my lap band surgery. I had gotten down to 269 pounds, and now I am back up to about 282. This surgery hasn't been any different than any other diet I have been on. I am completely gung ho and successful for a while, and then I crash and burn. I don't feel like the band has done anything for me, except to occasionally make me hurt and vomit. I can't seem to get my head back in the game, and I know the surgery does nothing for your head, so why the hell did I do it? I can't seem to come up with a good answer for that these days.